Firstly, thanks to you all for your comments, both here and on my FB page - so glad I'm not talking to myself here!
Back to "Absolution" and the character intro's. Today, I wanted to talk about Ally. This post has been the trickiest to write so far, mainly because I think she is the most complex of all the players. She was certainly the most difficult to write. I have rewritten this story a hundred times over the past four years, and every time she changes slightly. I think because I was so desperate for her to be more than just a victim.
She's had it pretty tough. One minute, she's in the car with Jack and Callum and everything's great, the next minute she wakes up in hospital. As if that wasn't enough to wrap her head around, Jack is gone and she has some pretty serious injuries. He should be there - she needs him to be there. So add a broken heart to a broken body and suddenly she also has a broken spirit. Not a fun place to be.
She can see that what happened that night has affected not only her, but everyone around her. They have all been through hell and while she doesn't feel responsible for that, she does feel like she has to protect them from more heartache. There is a dark place she crawls to inside her head that she is desperate to keep from them.
So she claws her way back from the brink - she pieces her life back
together and she holds on tightly to everyone she loves. She is not
going to risk this happening again. Life goes on and so must she. She throws herself into her work and she tries to forget about what might have been.
When Jack finally returns home, her carefully constructed "new normal" topples like a house of cards. All the feelings she had tucked neatly away in a box in her head with Jack's name on it, come hurtling out and it's time to face the past head-on. The heart is a difficult thing to ignore. She
is torn between the Jack she knew and loved before, and the one who
abandoned her in her time of need. A classic "heart versus head" dilemma.
I have to say, Ally and I have some things in common. She uses her work as an artist as a way not only to express herself but also as a way to hide out from the world for a while. We also have the same taste in music *ahem*.
I love the thread of friendship that weaves through this story - it's something that I wanted to make clear from the beginning. These people know each other inside out. They know each others strengths and weaknesses as only good friends do. They've seen each other at their best and their worst. They know when to push and when to leave you alone.
When Jack disappears, it takes them all by surprise because it's so out of character. And when he returns, he's definitely not the person they used to know. But then, none of them are.
Next time: Callum's story.
Again, thanks for your comments - it's so great to see!